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I miss u soooo much.... I can't stop tearing... Baby... Mummy really miss u alot...

13 Aug 2011 @ 2.20a.m

Baby,

Thank u for the 11 wonderful years that u have spent when me... Although I greedily wish it can be longer.. But I m grateful enough.. U have been an excellent dog.. A wonderful family member.. U are the bridge between mum n me.. U bring joy and fun to the house.. U are the motivation and the reason I come back home... U are the first one I knowledge when I m back.. And the last one when I left home... I m so used to having u sleep by me day and night.. I love u with my all my heart and soul.. I miss sharing all my food with u.. I miss kissing u to sleep... I miss playing ur toys with u.. I miss dressing u up... I miss reading u books.. I miss u waiting outside the bathroom until i finished my shower.. I miss u staying close to me when i dress up.. U were always there when I m going thru the toughest time of my life.. U took care of me when I m sick.. U stay by my side day and night when I m running a fever.. Even when u went to pee.. U hurried back to check that I m fine.. U accompany me thru so many heartbreaking moments.. But this time.. Should anything happened.. I know u are still with me.. Cause u will live in my heart forever... Although it's really really hard for me to let u go.. But I know u are in a better place now.. All the angels will take care of u.. And you will be watching over me in heaven.. Thou I really wish that u had wait for me to come back to see u for the last time.. But it's oki.. I understand .. U did tried.. No matter wad happened... I love u and u live in my heart forever..

Yours sincerely,
Mummy

Who cares

I m worried abt ppl and dog in pain.. But who actually cares about me.. How painful I m?? Despite feeling so emotionally weak now... I have to smile to my pax as if nothing had happened.. Just in another few hours time... I have to put on a strong front n pretend I can go thru this alone... I dunno how long I can hold my pain.. How much more tears left for me to cry... Just let all these bad times and setbacks moves as fast as possible... I have enough character for now... Dun need to build anymore ... Coz I dun think I can hold much longer.. Bless me ... Pray for me for strength...

Let go

It seem that the result today is very bad... I have decided to let her go... But I will be back to see her for the last time..

Thank u Audrey

In times of emergency.. I m actually relying on my long time pal.. I haven't met her for years.. But now... She is the one rushing my dog down to the vet... I m well prepare that she can't make it this time... All I m asking for is to wait for her to wait for me to get back.. I will be back tml morning... Pls pls.. Everyone pls help me pray for miricles... She told me her tongues are out n eyes are closing.. Pls dun go yet baby.. Mummy need u..

Should I let her go

I have been crying non stop.. Everyday... I can't sleep... Now she is home but she look so sick n she is so weak.. I dunno wad I should do.. Is she suffering?? Am I too selfish not to let her go?? I have spend so many thousands on her.. All I m asking for is for her to get well.. I really can't leave without her.. Lord pls save her..

Not very positive

Everyone call me lately to check how is xiaobai doing.. I really wish to tell them that she is getting better.. But she is not.. Thou she is reacting well with her medication.. But she is not eating.. She is still running a fever.. She got no strength.. Help me pls..