I miss u badly

Baby... Thou I know u r in a better place now.. But I miss you badly... I miss ur forever hungry look... I miss curdling u... I miss playing with u... That day when I saw mum putting food in ur bowl.. I tot u were back.. How I wish all these were just a nightmare and when I wake up u are right beside me... I regretted leaving u alone to go for my flight... I really tot u are getting better.. If not I will never go... Going home these day is such a pain... Everything in the house remind me of u... I m really moving out... Dun worry.. I will bring u along with me.. Mummy will never leave u alone... I will pack all ur fav toys.. Please let me dream of u... I really miss u alot alot.. :.........(

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I miss u soooo much.... I can't stop tearing... Baby... Mummy really miss u alot...

13 Aug 2011 @ 2.20a.m

Baby,

Thank u for the 11 wonderful years that u have spent when me... Although I greedily wish it can be longer.. But I m grateful enough.. U have been an excellent dog.. A wonderful family member.. U are the bridge between mum n me.. U bring joy and fun to the house.. U are the motivation and the reason I come back home... U are the first one I knowledge when I m back.. And the last one when I left home... I m so used to having u sleep by me day and night.. I love u with my all my heart and soul.. I miss sharing all my food with u.. I miss kissing u to sleep... I miss playing ur toys with u.. I miss dressing u up... I miss reading u books.. I miss u waiting outside the bathroom until i finished my shower.. I miss u staying close to me when i dress up.. U were always there when I m going thru the toughest time of my life.. U took care of me when I m sick.. U stay by my side day and night when I m running a fever.. Even when u went to pee.. U hurried back to check that I m fine.. U accompany me thru so many heartbreaking moments.. But this time.. Should anything happened.. I know u are still with me.. Cause u will live in my heart forever... Although it's really really hard for me to let u go.. But I know u are in a better place now.. All the angels will take care of u.. And you will be watching over me in heaven.. Thou I really wish that u had wait for me to come back to see u for the last time.. But it's oki.. I understand .. U did tried.. No matter wad happened... I love u and u live in my heart forever..

Yours sincerely,
Mummy

Who cares

I m worried abt ppl and dog in pain.. But who actually cares about me.. How painful I m?? Despite feeling so emotionally weak now... I have to smile to my pax as if nothing had happened.. Just in another few hours time... I have to put on a strong front n pretend I can go thru this alone... I dunno how long I can hold my pain.. How much more tears left for me to cry... Just let all these bad times and setbacks moves as fast as possible... I have enough character for now... Dun need to build anymore ... Coz I dun think I can hold much longer.. Bless me ... Pray for me for strength...

Let go

It seem that the result today is very bad... I have decided to let her go... But I will be back to see her for the last time..

Thank u Audrey

In times of emergency.. I m actually relying on my long time pal.. I haven't met her for years.. But now... She is the one rushing my dog down to the vet... I m well prepare that she can't make it this time... All I m asking for is to wait for her to wait for me to get back.. I will be back tml morning... Pls pls.. Everyone pls help me pray for miricles... She told me her tongues are out n eyes are closing.. Pls dun go yet baby.. Mummy need u..

Should I let her go

I have been crying non stop.. Everyday... I can't sleep... Now she is home but she look so sick n she is so weak.. I dunno wad I should do.. Is she suffering?? Am I too selfish not to let her go?? I have spend so many thousands on her.. All I m asking for is for her to get well.. I really can't leave without her.. Lord pls save her..

Not very positive

Everyone call me lately to check how is xiaobai doing.. I really wish to tell them that she is getting better.. But she is not.. Thou she is reacting well with her medication.. But she is not eating.. She is still running a fever.. She got no strength.. Help me pls..

I must try my best

Baby is still in the hospital.. She got kidney infection.. I have a 8 days flight coming on sun.. How can I go on that flight with her condition.. Plus mum is soo worried until she is ill.. I must try my best to apply for leave even thou it's my assessment flight.. I can't be so heartless.. I can't leave the 2 most impt ppl in my life.. Here in sin suffering.. Pls pray that my company will grant me my urgent leaves..

Pray for xiaobai

She is currently in the hospital.. She have to be warded for 2 days.. She has a kidney infection that might lead to kidney failure.. I m not giving up.. So baby.. Dun give up.. Let's fight to the very end k..

Freaking out

I m seriously freaking out.. Xiaobai did not eat anything.. She is keep throwing out.. I dun wanna lose her.. Pls help me.. Wad can I do??

Desperate

I dunno how to let xiaobai eat... All I can do now is to feed her a little milk every 2-3 hrs.. When will dr lye be back.. I m so scare of losing her.. She lost all her energy.. N is restless.. I keep throwing.. Pray for my xiaobai pls.. :.(

Argg

Xiaobai is not even eating her fav kfc?? When is dr lye coming back.. I need to go out n get drink drunk.. But with xiaobai like this at home.. How??

Xiaobai

I really dunno wad to do.. Xiaobai is rejecting all food.. I dunno wad I can do...

Strength

Lord, thank you for the suffering that You have given me. Your Word says that blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that You have promised to those who love You(James 1:12). Thank you for keeping me away from the enemies' trap. I choose to listen to the truth because I want to live Your way. Hide me under Your wings from the plots of evil men. My enemies will never bring me down as I stand firm in You.

God's Promise
When the storm has swept by, the wicked are gone, but the righteous stand firm forever.

Proverbs 10:25

The gift of friendship

Friendship is a priceless gift that cannot be bought or sold. But it's value is far greater than a mountain made of gold. For gold is cold and lifeless, it can neither see nor hear. And in the time of trouble it has no power to cheer. It has no ears to listen, no heart to understand. It cannot bring you comfort or reach out a helping hand. So when u ask God for a gift, be thankful if He sends no diamond, pearls or riches, but the love of real true friends.