I miss u badly

Baby... Thou I know u r in a better place now.. But I miss you badly... I miss ur forever hungry look... I miss curdling u... I miss playing with u... That day when I saw mum putting food in ur bowl.. I tot u were back.. How I wish all these were just a nightmare and when I wake up u are right beside me... I regretted leaving u alone to go for my flight... I really tot u are getting better.. If not I will never go... Going home these day is such a pain... Everything in the house remind me of u... I m really moving out... Dun worry.. I will bring u along with me.. Mummy will never leave u alone... I will pack all ur fav toys.. Please let me dream of u... I really miss u alot alot.. :.........(

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I miss u soooo much.... I can't stop tearing... Baby... Mummy really miss u alot...

13 Aug 2011 @ 2.20a.m

Baby,

Thank u for the 11 wonderful years that u have spent when me... Although I greedily wish it can be longer.. But I m grateful enough.. U have been an excellent dog.. A wonderful family member.. U are the bridge between mum n me.. U bring joy and fun to the house.. U are the motivation and the reason I come back home... U are the first one I knowledge when I m back.. And the last one when I left home... I m so used to having u sleep by me day and night.. I love u with my all my heart and soul.. I miss sharing all my food with u.. I miss kissing u to sleep... I miss playing ur toys with u.. I miss dressing u up... I miss reading u books.. I miss u waiting outside the bathroom until i finished my shower.. I miss u staying close to me when i dress up.. U were always there when I m going thru the toughest time of my life.. U took care of me when I m sick.. U stay by my side day and night when I m running a fever.. Even when u went to pee.. U hurried back to check that I m fine.. U accompany me thru so many heartbreaking moments.. But this time.. Should anything happened.. I know u are still with me.. Cause u will live in my heart forever... Although it's really really hard for me to let u go.. But I know u are in a better place now.. All the angels will take care of u.. And you will be watching over me in heaven.. Thou I really wish that u had wait for me to come back to see u for the last time.. But it's oki.. I understand .. U did tried.. No matter wad happened... I love u and u live in my heart forever..

Yours sincerely,
Mummy

Who cares

I m worried abt ppl and dog in pain.. But who actually cares about me.. How painful I m?? Despite feeling so emotionally weak now... I have to smile to my pax as if nothing had happened.. Just in another few hours time... I have to put on a strong front n pretend I can go thru this alone... I dunno how long I can hold my pain.. How much more tears left for me to cry... Just let all these bad times and setbacks moves as fast as possible... I have enough character for now... Dun need to build anymore ... Coz I dun think I can hold much longer.. Bless me ... Pray for me for strength...

Let go

It seem that the result today is very bad... I have decided to let her go... But I will be back to see her for the last time..

Thank u Audrey

In times of emergency.. I m actually relying on my long time pal.. I haven't met her for years.. But now... She is the one rushing my dog down to the vet... I m well prepare that she can't make it this time... All I m asking for is to wait for her to wait for me to get back.. I will be back tml morning... Pls pls.. Everyone pls help me pray for miricles... She told me her tongues are out n eyes are closing.. Pls dun go yet baby.. Mummy need u..

Should I let her go

I have been crying non stop.. Everyday... I can't sleep... Now she is home but she look so sick n she is so weak.. I dunno wad I should do.. Is she suffering?? Am I too selfish not to let her go?? I have spend so many thousands on her.. All I m asking for is for her to get well.. I really can't leave without her.. Lord pls save her..